I Raise You Ali

Ah Ali, you challenged me to write about one way I am being 'reborn' this springtime. What if it is not happened yet?  Is that okay?  Can I tell you how I want to be reborn?  How I long for it, hope for it, pray for it?  There are several things out there right now. 

In class last night, a guy had created an emotional board to use for a presentation he was making.  We all had to go up & claim our emotion at that moment.  What scared me what that I truly could have said I was all of them at the same time.  Well, except one.  Happy.  But Guilty, Scared, Nervous, Anxious, Bored, Lonely.  Those ones all fit. 

The truth is, I'm having trouble keeping up with everything going on.  I've got my student teaching, school nights, homework papers and presentations, some yucky health stuff, and of course my mother.  I'm feeling overwhelmed, and I am ready to be "reborn" away from all of it!  Or, maybe taught how to deal with it all, and feel reborn with the relief.  

I've been reading a book called "I Am my Mother's Daughter", about caregiving issues and the relationships we have with our Mothers; the good, the bad and the ugly.  My mother hung up on me today.  That sums up our relationship right now.  I am the adult and she doesn't want to see her life for what it is and doesn't like what I was saying.  I know her life isn't fair, but whose is?

So what I wish for today is to wake up tomorrow feeling lighter.  Could you wave your magic wand for me?   I hope to feel reborn soon.  I'll tell you about it, I promise.

Pagan Reading Anyone?

Hi Bean!

I've been reading in my Circle Round book from the goddess/pagan tradition (by Starhawk). And I came across this explanation which is fairly simple, but I liked it anyways.

Eostar is a joyful holiday, centered around symbols of rebirth and growth: eggs, seeds, baby animals. But Eostar also has a deeper meaning. Because this is the time of balance between dark and light, it is also the time when we examine all kinds of balance in our lives - in particular, the balance of life and death. Birth is a time when the gate between the worlds are open. The seeds that were buried in the ground return as new shoots. Bulbs sprout and flower. and the dead return from the other world as new beings.

The equinox begins the season of planting. We prepare the ground and sow the seeds - if only in pots on our window sills to be planted outdoors when the ground warms up.

At the winter solstice, the sun is reborn; at Eostar, the earth is reborn. All life awakens as the days grow longer.

I REALLY like thinking about the earth as reborn. Great image, it makes me want to go dig in the dirt. Which I just may do!!!

Love you, off to bed. xoxo Ali W