How about a continuation of some spring flowers!!!! Round robin style.. :-) We should try to post a flower(s) every entry until the end of April! You know how I love flowers, I do I do.
Of course, I realize that I haven't posted on my own challenge to you on how I am being reborn this spring. And I gotta admit, it's a tough one. Personal power comes to mind. Not sure what that means, exactly. Maybe being reborn into a person that I remember being in the past. which makes me sad to even write that. But, I think it's true.
One thing I've realized as of late is that I don't think I really know how to successfully be in a relationship and own my personal power, my independence, the Alex, joie de Vivre (sp?) that I know I have more of when I'm on my own. I guess that would qualify me as a codependent, which is a term I loathe. But, I'm trying to take back that power that fuels who I am, truly. Being reborn into myself? God, that sounds so depressing. It's not that I'm not ME, I've just lost some of me. But, where have I lost it to? Where does it go? Does someone else have it? Is it buried deep inside? Is this really bullshit, and I just THINK I've lost it? Is it really in my head? Oh lord.
Let me get back to something here that reminds me that I haven't lost me completely. How about the flowers I posted here? The visit to the Cartier exhibit on Saturday that was just Awesome, exciting and beautiful to be back at the Legion of Honor by the bay. Breath. Aaahhh. There we go, back on track a bit.
Talk about procrastination.. I posted this from work. DOH! :-)
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